[ he does know. one way or another. he shifts onto his side, then onto his back again, swallows the lump in his throat until it disappears. he wishes he wasn't drunk, but at least he knows it isn't cowardice holding him back anymore, the threat of the world and its rules leaning in. it's just regular things, adult things. a wedding ring, a separate coast.
he stares at the hotel ceiling for a few more seconds. the only light in the room is the slight glow of the phone against his face. ]
What'd you do yesterday.
[ he didn't check in, so irresponsible. he wants to know everything about eddie, the way he used to, the way some part of him is gravely convinced he still does. ]
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[ he does know. one way or another. he shifts onto his side, then onto his back again, swallows the lump in his throat until it disappears. he wishes he wasn't drunk, but at least he knows it isn't cowardice holding him back anymore, the threat of the world and its rules leaning in. it's just regular things, adult things. a wedding ring, a separate coast.
he stares at the hotel ceiling for a few more seconds. the only light in the room is the slight glow of the phone against his face. ]
What'd you do yesterday.
[ he didn't check in, so irresponsible. he wants to know everything about eddie, the way he used to, the way some part of him is gravely convinced he still does. ]